I'm BACK BITCHES! Except I gots ta get up at 6am, so I need sleep. Blah.... I will go on rants now, tho!!! YAY! THE RANTER IS BACK!!!!!!!
Love Megan
Hello to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Miss all of you, and, reading my last entry, damn my life has changed......
Hopefully HOPEFULLY I will be up and running again, tho.... sniff.
--Megan
Hey there guys and gals....
Sitting here at my computer - at home - for the first time in a looonnnnggg time. The sky shit on me ALOT this week, so, this is the first time I've actually BEEN home in quite a few days. I go online a work when my boss isn't looking, but thats few and far between.
ANYWAY ~~
I'm gonna bitch. Alot. Ready? Cool.
Sooo....
Corporate America sucks my ass. Why oh why can there not be cool, unjudging, kick back bosses that just expect you to do your job and everything else is a-okay? -if that makes ANY sence- Why? Why does EVERYONE have to be backstabbing assholes?
Okay-- Let me backtrack.
2 days ago my boss accused me of taking 75 dollars. Me. So, I know many of you don't know me, but FUCK! I would NEVER ever do anything like that. Why would I chance losing a job where EVERY paycheck is almost a THOUSAND dollars (comission rocks) for a measly 75 bucks??? I mean, I know I'm the newbie, but give me a break, people.
Anyway--so my boss asked me about it, blah, blah, of course I said no, I didn't take it whatever. Hes like, cool, just make sure you count the money well when you give customers back their change, ect, ect. Rock on, dude.
So, my mom is kinda late picking me up tonight, so instead of standing outside where its FREEZING, I go back inside, and as I walk in, my boss is counting out the shifts end cash and says loudly, to my coworker and 3 of the warehouse dudes, "Well, Megan is off tomorrow, so we'll see how the cash comes out on Friday. Then we'll catch our little thief."
I stopped where I was, and stood there. My boss, people! When I was the boss, if anything happend, I DID NOT discuss it with everyone that worked there!!! I HAD MORE FUCKING RESPECT THAN THAT!!!
Anyway... I started walking tward the counter and my coworker turned around and his eyes got all wide and he says, "Well, hello there Megan. Too cold outside for you?" My boss looks up and he turned all red and his eyes got all wide too, and he looked down at the money real quick. Then asked me, "So is your mom late???" I said, "Yeah... Just wanted to call her to see if she was running late."
Called my mom, turned around and walked out without a word. I wish I could be a fly on the wall after I left.
Fuckers.
And--heres what else happened this week:
I used to do alot of drugs. Bad drugs. I've quit and have been clean for several months. But, when I was on those bad, bad drugs, I kept journals. I used to write. Alot. Thank God I never write ABOUT the drugs, but I would write about anything and everything. The little spec of dirt on the coffee table to the biggest thing that was happening in my life, to what was going on in my family life.
One day my mom pissed me off. So, I wrote about it when I was high.
Thats the one journal that I misplaced and couldn't find.
That's the one journal my mom found 2 nights ago.
I'm now kicked out of the house.
Thank God I was moving in with my boyfriend anyway.
I have to be out tomorrow night.
I should be packing right now.
Fuck.
My mom and I have made up, tho, which is good. I won a 50 dollar gift certificate to "Chama River Brewing Co" at work for selling the most 2 weeks ago... even tho I stole all the money out of the cash register. Ha. Not funny. Never mind.
But, I treated my mom to a steak and margarita tonight and we had a nice long talk. We determined it was best for me to get the hell out, you know, so we could maintain a relationship, cuz, honestly, my mom is my best friend.
I explained that that was just an angry day and I didn't mean it. I just had to get my feelings out. Hense: Journal. Isn't that what journals are for?? PRIVATE things that you bitch at. Thats what I'm doing now on my ONLINE JOURNAL. Hopefully none of my coworkers know about this or ever find it.....
Sorry about the randomness and spelling. I'm just really pissed right now and want to go shit on everyone I work with... ect ect ect.
So... anyway, as of tomorrow, I will have no internet. Dammit. Except when I sneak online at work... which is pretty easy. Ill miss being at home for hours on the computer, tho..... *sniff*
That will happen in January when Elijah and I get a big apt (its a studio right now) and then I will have room for my big ass tv and computer. YAY!
Love you all and thanks for listening....
And thank God for DAVE! Listening to "Ill back you up" and calming down...... *sigh*
Artist: Dave Matthews Band
Song: Ill Back You Up
I remember thinking
I'll go on forever only knowing
I'll see you again
but I know
the touch of you is so hard to remember
but like that touch I know no other
and for sure we have danced
in the risk of each other
would like to dance
around the world with me
I'll be falling all about my own thing
and I know your the heaviest weight
when your not here that's hung
around my head
and your lips burn wild
thrown from the face of a child
and in your eyes
the seeing of the greatest few
do what you will, always
walk where you like, your steps
do as you please, I'll back you up
I remember thinking
sometimes we walk
sometimes we run away
no matter how fast we are running
somehow we keep
somehow we keep up with each other
I'll be falling all about my own thing
and I know your the heaviest weight
when your not here that's hung
around my head
and your lips burn wild
thrown from the face of a child
and in your eyes
the seeing of the greatest few
do what you will, always
walk where you like, your steps
do as you please, I'll back you up.
